Shiny. Happy. Me?

Nothing makes you reflect more than a personality typing profiling with 15 managers from the Ontario locations for my work, and we started with the DiSC typing. I'm an "I" - Influencer. I was the only one in the room. My general characteristics include "Enthusiastic. Trusting. Optimistic. Persuasive. Talkative. Impulsive. Emotional".

Enthusiastic? Optimistic? Well, not the me you know from the recent entries in this blog. I'll be the first to admit I've been downright depressing. But at work, I am that bubbly, friendly, optimistic, helpful, talkative person - I'm the classic HR person. You want to drop by my office because I will make a joke, make you smile, solve a problem and send you on your way. I am also serious when required - hiring, firing and providing advice to managers on how best to manage the myriad of unique issues that arise amongst the teams.

Trusting? Yep, almost too much, to my detriment. I believed everything everyone had to say. Doctors, colleagues, "friends". I'm a bit more experienced, jaded, savvy. I trust my doctors, but need to understand the information for myself. I want to research topics, procedures, protocols, medication for myself, and have an intelligent conversation with my doctors.

Emotional? You betcha. I run the extremes on emotion. I am ecstatically happy, or despondently sad. I cry over many things. I have sobbed over health related news. I have laughed with tears in my eyes at the crazy antics of my kids. I have shed tears over commercials, songs, thoughts and scents that took me to a place of sadness. I have cried writing entries in this blog as a form of catharsis for my emotions related to this illness.

Talkative? Yeppers. I am well spoken, and I believe well-written. In the discussion today, "Talkative" was used to describe a strong and confident communicator. That is true for me. I know my mind, can communicate my thoughts effectively and can understand where others are coming from. I get my energy from others. If I have a problem, I talk it out. I want to go for coffee, dinner, drinks with friends. I am social and outgoing. Really.

Odd, after re-reading my recently depressing postings, I'm afraid I haven't presented a balanced view. Or maybe I can be so happy in my daily life as I have left all the anger and negativity in my blog. I like to get things out. I like to clear the air. I post when I have something to say, good or bad.

Today, is a good day. And here is a happy post.

I had a frustrating week last week at work. Part of my role is recruiting new team members. Three open roles that I had filled wound up re-opening for various reasons. I was driving into work, after two bad days of stewing over this in a rather unproductive manner, and heard Whitesnake's "Here I go Again". Awesome! "Here I go again on my own, goin' down the only road I've ever known". While this is a sappy, big-hair rock band song about looking for love, it spoke to me about my work challenges last week and immediately lifted my mood.

Here I go again, recruiting. Here I go again, talking to doctors. Here I go again, getting a shoulder replaced. Here I go again, goin' down the only road I've ever known.