Sunday, December 13, 2009

Was it a bus or a train that just ran me over?

I've found my pity place and I'm throwing a huge party - feel free to join in. I'm tired. I'm sad. I'm mad. If I were my 2 year old I would be on my tummy right now kicking and screaming in a full blown tantrum- assuming I had the energy, of course. Instead of throwing a tantrum on the floor, I'll just write about it.

I am 97.6% sure that I am having a flare, however it feels like a muted version, as my sugar-daddy anti-RA drug (Enbrel) seems to be working for me and I am not feeling the full force of the flare. I am trying - 1 mg less per day each month - to get off my Prednisone. I have posted before about my love/hate relationship with Prednisone - but I feel it is time to part ways, but what is the cost? I have been reducing my Prednisone from 10 mg per day down to 4 mg per day now - which I am excited about. However I have noticed that I have had a few mini-flares recently, so I am now paying the price of less prednisone. RA Guy has blogged about Diclofenac injections, and I have made a note to ask my rheumatologist about this on my next visit.

I am also paying the price of a way-too-big-day at work this past week. Our company hosted a drop-in party for 100 contractors and I (as usual) helped out with food prep all day - leaving me on my feet using my hands. My right thumb said a big "screw you" by not functioning properly for the following 2 days and the rest of me woke up feeling like a bus/excavator/street paver/steamroller/passenger train ran over me (can you tell I have a 4 year old boy?). In sum, I feel like crap.

I'm mad at myself for not speaking up. You'd think that after 18 years of living with RA, I would know my limits and be able to speak up. Somehow I prioritized work over my health and wound up on the couch, tired and in pain. Usually I'm a pretty smart cookie. Usually.

2 comments:

  1. Hey Megan! Congratulations on reducing your prednisone. I also had some mini flares as I was going off of it. I think the hardest part for me though was the fatigue and body aches in the mornings as I reduced it. I don't know how you're doing it with young kids and a job!
    I would love to get your email address if you're comfortable with that. Mine is arthritis.survivor@gmail.com Just send me a quick email if you get a chance!
    Warmly, robin

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  2. I still don't speak up for myself after 24 years with RA. I'd have done exactly as you did - help out with the food prep, and feel all of the ill effects later.

    Getting off of prednisone is hard, but it's wonderful that you're doing it! I felt so much happier and slept so much better after I finally stopped it.

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