Toeing the Line

All my life I've been good, but now, I'm thinking "What the hell?"

Good words from fellow Canadian Avril Lavigne. The song is a pop anthem, but every now and then there is a kernel of wisdom to be found in a Top 40 song. While she was talking about busting loose after a relationship, my take is more along the lines of being sick of toeing the line.

I'm such a responsible person. I really am. I pay my taxes. I don't skive off work. I take care of my family. I take my meds. I drink lots of water. I try to eat lots of fruits and veggies. I exercise how and when I can. I toe the line.

All this has gotten me where, exactly? Is it that I would be less healthy if I didn't do these things? In the grand scheme of things, I guess that is possible to be less healthy, but in the grand scheme of things, you could also be arthritis-free.

I've been gainfully employed since I graduated, for the most part with out a break. I've never done something utterly irresponsible. I don't really have that luxury having RA. I need to sleep. I need to take meds. I needs to take care of myself, or else I seem to "pay" in some way.

It's tiring and frustrating having RA and having to be responsible. All.The.Time. As Avril says, All my life I've been good but now I'm thinking "What the hell?"

I'm with you Avril.